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A Big Scary Thing

I know I owe you a post detailing how I did on my January goals, my February goals, and the ladies’ day in Brunswick, GA, but today I wanted to write about some big scary things that I’ve been thinking about. The first scary thing I did was go to a printer and get copies of A Serious Prayer Journal printed. If you saw me in Brunswick, you’ve seen this beauty, a 21 day prayer journal to help women make prayer a daily habit. The journal opens with a page entitled A Big, Bold Prayer. It’s supposed to be something you want to ask God for that scares you a little.

I wanted to start the prayer journal for myself, but I wasn’t sure what I wanted to focus on for the next 21 days. There are a bunch of topics I could focus in on, so many things I need to get done. But I kept coming back to one thing in particular: my next book, The Season for Getting Serious. I felt a nudge to put off rushing it for the ladies’ day in Brunswick and to give it the time it needed, and now I see better why I was given that nudge. This book is needs more organization, more research, and definitely more prayer to get it to where it needs to be. I have most of the pieces, but they aren’t completely formed. I think my goal to sell 500 copies was causing me to rush its release. I wanted to have as much time as possible to reach this seemingly impossible number. I hadn’t given the goal over to the Lord.

If I’ve learned anything from reading the Bible, it’s that a little is a lot. Faith the size of a mustard seed can move a mountain; a little leaven can leaven the whole lump. Christ fed thousands with a few fish and loaves of bread. I can bring a small amount of time to sell to Christ and He can make that sufficient to do more than I could ask or think if I’m abiding in Him and doing His will. The urge to hurry up is in my flesh, but the call to be still and learn of Him is coming from my spirit.

So I’m going to do a big scary thing this week. I am wiping the slate of this book clean. I’m going to look over all of the notes and scriptures I have and listen to the recordings I’ve made. I’m going to pray about what God really wants to say to the hearts of women who want to live for Him but who are struggling to make that commitment. And I’m going to work on something else in the meantime. I’m not going to watch the clock; I’m going to watch the Lord.

What would your big, bold prayer be for the next three weeks? Leave a comment below for a chance to win A Serious Prayer Journal. I can’t wait to see what God has placed on your hearts.