Confessional #1

I thought it would be a good idea, if I’m to work on my accountability, to share here not only progress but a few failures from time to time. Maybe one of you loyal readers will have a suggestion on where I’m going wrong. Also, sometimes you just have to say some things to someone else. They aren’t right or wrong or seeking advice, they are just thoughts. Like this: The greatest thing about the internet is that I can give my perspective and opinion on anything I want whether I am asked for it or not; the worst thing is, so can everyone else.–see? No advice needed; just an observation.

The Confessional Posts will be where I give my opinions, make my confessions, and/or seek forgiveness. I am not Catholic, so it won’t be that type of confessional. Think Sylvia Plath confessional poetry, or a tell all book. Ahem, without further ado…

I hate working out. Well, not really. I hate starting to work out, and being sore afterwards gives me no warm fuzzies either. I think sweat is kind of gross (sure smells that way). I hate going to the gym and looking at my flab moving under my shirt in the mirror opposite (and there is always a mirror). I hate guys watching my butt while I’m on the treadmill or elliptical (as if I am not self conscious enough in here!).

I have friends who find it easy to exercise, who have found their exercise passion, but their success does not motivate me. I am happy for them, jealous of their results at times, but I don’t necessarilyy want to do what they do to get those results. When I think of my fitness “passion,” it’s all used to: I used to love to do suicides, run/walk intervals, learn to swim. I used to walk or run everywhere. I loved to be outside. I had a bike that I rode almost everyday from one side of town to the other.

If I had to pick some things I still like to do that are physical, I can only name two–play tennis (which I’m horrible at) and do yoga. There are a few yoga exercises (like the Body Slim by Yoga Works) that make you sweat and feel the burn, but there are also exercises that calm your mind, which I am always trying to do. It also usually doesn’t involve equipment (or shoes!), which means it’s limited investment with great results (when I actually stick with it). I’m not the most flexible person in the world, but after a month or so, I can get deep into some stretches that I raised my eyebrows at in the beginning.

Everyone’s urging me to try this hot yoga, but I don’t want to try to hold those positions soaking wet. Can you imagine, your hands slipping in the downward dog and face-planting? Or losing your balance in balancing stick and–well, face-planting? I may give it a try when I have the money for classses. I would love to actually take yoga classes (it would hold me more accountable), but I have no money 🙁

You know what I hate the most about working out? The one area I hate the most is the very last area I see results, no matter what area the workouts are focused on. I want to lose my gut, I lift my booty (making it look bigger, according to my cousin…I have no problem with a firm, sitting up bottom, thank you), slim my thighs (okay, so they needed it), and build calf muscle for days, but my stomach barely shrinks 1/4 inch and I lose not a pound. Hmph! I used to keep going until I saw physical results becuse I was getting the mental results (clearing my head, my “me” time, being in the sunshine, singing on runs/walks in isolated areas as loud as I wanted, getting to be by myslef without leading people to believe I needed some company), but now I have found other (more slovenly) ways to fulfill most of those desires. So now what am I supposed to do to motivate myself to move and stop, as one gym commercial says “sedating myself with cookies”? (Actually, I don’t eat any cookies save Pirouettes French Vanilla rolled wafers, and those rarely)

Give me your best fitness advice for a less than enthused, need to see some results or I’m not doing it, can’t seem to enjoy physical activities diva.

7 Comments

  1. No way to get around the sweat, lol.

    Sounds like you’re psyching yourself out concerning exercise. Think about the physical results as opposed to how much you hate working out. What about checking out some yoga dvds from the library and working out 2-3x a week at home until you can take the classes? I don’t know what you’re schedule is like, but maybe you can carve out an hour on the days you choose to SOLELY work out (getting up an hour earlier or IMMEDIATELY after work). Consistency is key.

    Have you ever tried Taebo? I know it’s a bit dated, but it’s a total body workout even the ones for beginners. Much success in whatever you choose!

    • 2blu2btru

      I actually have FitTV on Demand, lol. My problem is motivation. I will even stasrt out fine, but if I see no results after two or three weeks, I lose all motivation (I’m not doing it for my health!–well, I am, but you know what I mean, right?) I used to be able to site other benefits that were mental, like stress relief, but I relieve stress other ways, most of which involve no physical activity at all. And I don’t have a workout partner, which would at least give me someone to hang with and make it less about working out (mentally) *sigh* I can be a self motivator in a lot of areas, but not in fitness anymore. I’m resetting the clock and trying it again from the top though; wish me luck!

  2. Motivation for working out IS hard…but for me, it is such a daily part of my routine that I feel “off” if I don’t – and once you get into the routine that works for YOU, it becomes ingrained. In my opinion anyway…and btw, I love this confessional idea! I agree that FitTV is pretty good and some of the OnDemand stuff from Comcast as well…try any of the Cindy Whitmarsh ab blasts, and they are great! 20 mins or less and you feel it!

  3. I think you need to search for your “new” fitness passion. Some things people just don’t wanna do and others they will do. I think the recommendation is 30 mins/day but upwards of 60-90/day to lose weight depending on how much. If you don’t like to do strenuous cardio workouts or cannot afford them (tennis, running, biking, yoga) then try 30 mins of something you love and work on your diet.

    What worked for my gut was limiting carbs. I’m not a bread/pasta eater anyways so it wasn’t difficult to cut them out but I still must eat them to run so I eat them when I need them instead of when I see them. The gut on women is hard to fight & it takes lots of effort and often drastic measures. I still think a walk/run routine will burn more than any other cardio option and walking will safeguard your shins until you perfect your running form.

    I’m going to try hot yoga this month at $25 for 30 days (new members only) I might as well.

  4. 2blu2btru

    @Jolene, I only feel “off” if I go a day without reading…doesn’t help my fitness, but at least I know what that feels like. The On Demand choices are pretty good, but I get discouraged when I can’t get through one, rather than feel challenged to make it through the next time. I think I’m just spoiled because I am usually good at things the first time.

    @Denisha, I hear the hot yoga is great, and take water with you. I read a yoga guide on Women’s health and there IS a yoga for runners/athletes…can’t remember the style but it’s all endurance & cardio-esque; I’ll look it up again. I am all about pasta, unfortunately. I don’t go for cookies, cakes, pies, chips, but sodas & pasta get me. I’m cutting soda….pasta…not ready yet, lol. I feel like I’ve tried every physical activity outside of sex, and the closest I get to passion is a vague notion I could do it again if I could drag myself to do it.

    I am a hopeless (fitness) case 🙁

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