Well, it turns out that quite a few of my new friends are in my learning community, which, for those who don’t have them at their college, are groups of freshmen interested in creating a smaller community experience. It’s purpose is to keep students enrolled at Purdue–i.e., they are trying to keep people from flunking out or switching schools. The politics side of it seems really fun, but the teacher seems like a real taskmaster. There is no slacking off in his class. He wants you to be on top of everything, no half-steppin’. Anyway, the class is up and running…we gotta read chapters in the book already, avidly participate, and no one has the book. Oh well, I guess he can’t get mad at us if no one does it…can he?
Math sucked, as usual. We had to take a placement test. The questions were really easy but, as usual, I froze on a lot of them and couldn’t get the answers out. It is so frustrating for me because it never happens in any other class, I don’t know what the problem is, so I can’t begin to find a solution…I can only hope this year will be different. I don’t want to end up failing or getting too low of a grade, because I don’t want to lose my scholarship, you know? But anyway, all I can do is try my best, something I don’t think I’ve ever done in any math class since algebra 1. But this is a new beginning, a new chapter and I have another chance to be good at math! Not real excited about it though.
I saw P today, walking with a female friend of his. He never even acknowledged me. Ok, so maybe he didn’t see me, but it felt like a brush off, and something inside of me couldn’t breath anymore. I had pinned so much hope on this relationship, I guess, that every little thing has me scared that it won’t work. He’s been ignoring my messages all day, as well as avoiding me personally. Well, look for First day number two tomorrow…
Come back with my sanity!
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Stay tuned for another misadventure of this almost grown woman…until the next time, keep it true, no matter how many feelings truth hurts!