Even though P and I are still deciding whether to stay friends or move forward, I feel like today is going to be a very big day for us. P is moving in today, which means that we will get to hang out, something that doesn’t happen with him living in Indianapolis and me in Pontiac, MI. I guess that’s the great thing about college, you meet people from all over.
Anyway, P is a sophomore here at Purdue and I am a freshman. It’s still a little difficult for me to believe that he doesn’t already have a girlfriend. Someone like that isn’t usually left to waste away on a college campus with tens of thousands of people on it, but then again, I think I am a pretty good catch, and I am all alone too, so maybe people are just clueless.
I can’t say that I know what will happen today. Maybe, after spending time together in person, we will decide to be just friends. Maybe we’ll have too much chemistry to stay that way and start dating. Maybe, after a while, I’ll grate on his nerves and he will forever avoid me. But what I do know is today is a day to be different from the girl Erica I was and to step into the new Almost-Grown Erica that I am becoming. I am working on the being shy around guys thing, so hopefully I won’t do anything really embarrassing. I am so excited!
I am not one of those uber-women yet, the ones who know how to put on make-up, are always color coordinated, have a signature scent, know how to talk to guys, who have the ability to read a guy and mold herself into his perfect woman, so needless to say it is taking me a while to do stuff…I couldn’t decide on a scent to wear, I couldn’t choose any outfit (nothing seemed quite right), my shoes are specifically matched to the outfit, and don’t get me started on my hair! I am just a mess, but P seems to like me being me, lip gloss, tennis shoes, large behind and all (no, not fat, but I have junk in the trunk, just a little :-)), so I guess I need to just relax and be myself.
However, myself is alone, therefore, would it be so bad to want to be someone else, just for a little while? I mean, I know everyone knows that girl who has no problem getting any guy she wants. Don’t you sometimes wish you could have her charm, her wit, her looks, her natural grace? Speaking as the most graceless female you will ever come across, I do wish that. I wish all those things sometimes, but I have to work with what God gave me.
Anyway, I’ll stop complaining now and hit the showers. Maybe my roommate will be here today. I’ll write later about P, my roommate, BGR (explain later), and continue the exposition on the Frat character types.
Suddenly Desperately Seeking Susan,
P.S. Read the footer. Peace, Love, and Hair grease
Stay tuned for another misadventure of this almost grown woman…until the next time, keep it true, no matter how many feelings truth hurts!